Post by Deleted on May 10, 2019 21:49:13 GMT -5
Time and time again
we fall in to the depths of who we are
But you can't keep running away
from what you're trying to find
But you can't keep running away
from what you're trying to find
Self-induced sorrow. That was a thing, right? Whenever life brings on the rain, why not try to drown yourself in it. That should be the motto of sixth year. At this point it would be rather fitting. Anything that could go wrong basically had and at this point he didn't even know what to do about it. His dad had been missing all year, without a single owl or note. To him, at least. According to Phief there had been one. Some secret one he hadn't told his youngest brothers about to keep from causing them upset during a trying time what with school and the epidemic and whatever. Dima wasn't sure that he believed his eldest brother. It seemed all to convenient for him to bring it up right when he was having his heart ripped out. Being told his father had regretted all his children and returned back to Russia, and sent for Bailey to join him, so that he could make things right.
He didn't know what to think or what to believe. His father who he had been so close to now hated him. Zoe's family hated him. They didn't want him anywhere near her, and neither did his brothers. It was hard to not let himself get down about what he was. All his life he had seen the whole purity thing as just some annoying thing his brothers tried shoving down his throat and now... Now he was wondering if it weren't somehow true. If he was some piece of shit mistake that didn't measure up to those of pure blood. Typically he could argue against those sort of intrusive thoughts. But over the past few weeks he had stopped trying to argue or fight them. If he was going to be sad he was just going to let it happen.
Quietly, of course. He had an obligation to act like everything was fine. Sure, he wasn't some high society pureblood but he still had an image to uphold and expectations set for him. He wasn't going to sulk about being forced away from Zoe. Not publicly, anyhow. But what he was prepared to sulk about was the fact that they had lost. They had lost. That was as sad as it was annoying and with all the pent up shit he had been harboring he was glad that they had dueling in Defense class later on.
In the mean time Dima was determined to stash away more angst if he could. So, naturally, he had wandered to the trophy room following his return from his internship. The trophy room with last years trophies, and the year before that, and surely this years once it came to pass. And yet another year would go by without the Ravenclaw name as a victor. Dima sighed heavily once he finally found the trophy for their last earned Quidditch Cup. His eyes darted from the dull trophy toward the figure that had come into his vision.
"Hey." His voice was quiet, but ringing with disappointment. The diminished shine of the trophy gave a hint at it's age and the more he looked at it the more disheartening it became. Dima let out another sigh before turning to Vet. "We haven't won a Cup since third year; If you can believe that." He could. They hadn't been lucky as of late, though they'd had a decent enough season so far. Hell, he was almost sure that he had seen Vet for practices more than he had seen her for damn near anything else. Today, however, Dima had figured he would see her. Their shared Defense class would be starting soon, just down the hall.There was a time earlier in the year they might have come to class together but as of late he had been keeping mostly to himself. Just like old times.
He didn't know what to think or what to believe. His father who he had been so close to now hated him. Zoe's family hated him. They didn't want him anywhere near her, and neither did his brothers. It was hard to not let himself get down about what he was. All his life he had seen the whole purity thing as just some annoying thing his brothers tried shoving down his throat and now... Now he was wondering if it weren't somehow true. If he was some piece of shit mistake that didn't measure up to those of pure blood. Typically he could argue against those sort of intrusive thoughts. But over the past few weeks he had stopped trying to argue or fight them. If he was going to be sad he was just going to let it happen.
Quietly, of course. He had an obligation to act like everything was fine. Sure, he wasn't some high society pureblood but he still had an image to uphold and expectations set for him. He wasn't going to sulk about being forced away from Zoe. Not publicly, anyhow. But what he was prepared to sulk about was the fact that they had lost. They had lost. That was as sad as it was annoying and with all the pent up shit he had been harboring he was glad that they had dueling in Defense class later on.
In the mean time Dima was determined to stash away more angst if he could. So, naturally, he had wandered to the trophy room following his return from his internship. The trophy room with last years trophies, and the year before that, and surely this years once it came to pass. And yet another year would go by without the Ravenclaw name as a victor. Dima sighed heavily once he finally found the trophy for their last earned Quidditch Cup. His eyes darted from the dull trophy toward the figure that had come into his vision.
"Hey." His voice was quiet, but ringing with disappointment. The diminished shine of the trophy gave a hint at it's age and the more he looked at it the more disheartening it became. Dima let out another sigh before turning to Vet. "We haven't won a Cup since third year; If you can believe that." He could. They hadn't been lucky as of late, though they'd had a decent enough season so far. Hell, he was almost sure that he had seen Vet for practices more than he had seen her for damn near anything else. Today, however, Dima had figured he would see her. Their shared Defense class would be starting soon, just down the hall.There was a time earlier in the year they might have come to class together but as of late he had been keeping mostly to himself. Just like old times.
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