Post by Donald Leonardo Westwood on Jan 27, 2019 19:15:44 GMT -5
((OOC: Donald's Outfit))
Quidditch wasn’t entirely going well for Ravenclaw this year. While they didn’t win last year, either the 14-year-old felt that they had done a pretty decent job last year and finished strongly. After all, they were runners-up in that year. However, this year they seemed to be struggling, and Donald felt that he was to blame. It might have been wrong for him to blame himself, after all, they didn’t do that badly last year. At least not in his opinion. He pondered if the change of broom had caused issues. His old teammate Caerus Nott gave him a Firebolt 2017 last year, and Donnie had been using it ever since. It was a good broom, a whole lot better than his old one. The young lad thought he had been getting used to it and decided that couldn’t be the problem. However, he did make a mental note to owl Caerus and see how things were going. That would not be weird right?
Thinking about his old teammates, it occurred to him that it might be the new team that was part of the issue. Maybe the new captain was not quite as good as the old one, or some of the other players were not as skilled as last year’s team? He decided that this probably wasn’t the case either. Maybe the captain, Lyla Graves, wasn’t as good as LJ? But he pushed that thought away as being unworthy of him. Of course, Lyla was a good captain, and he liked her. It wasn’t her fault nor was it his teammates' fault. That only left him at fault.
It didn’t occur to the fourth year to think that it wasn’t his fault at all and, instead the other teams have gotten stronger. Or that his own team was merely having a run of bad luck. That sometimes happens to sports teams.
Donnie was concerned about his team, worried that his performance was to blame, and anxious that he may get the blame and be thrown off the team. He needed to practice harder and harder; he needed to do better and make sure that he caught the snitch. It was his job as Ravenclaw seeker to do that, and he believed, rightly or wrongly, that he was failing in that.
It had crossed his mind to hand in his resignation to the team and apologise (probably non-stop knowing him) to his teammates and housemates for being such a complete and utter failure. The Welsh boy felt like crying over it He sighed a bit as he tried to fight the tears that were starting to well up in his brown eyes. Donald didn’t want to fail anyone; he didn’t want to be the one that was causing Ravenclaw to lose.
Maybe the pale-skinned youngster was putting a bit too much pressure onto himself, and he needed to relax a bit. Perhaps he didn’t need to be stressing himself so much over quidditch. It was only a game after all. At least that is what his sister would probably tell him if she saw him being so upset over it. But it wasn’t just a game, it was important, Making his parents proud of him, not letting own his teammates and helping Ravenclaw house pride were all very important to the young boy.
The spiky-haired lad leaned on his broom at the edge of the quidditch pitch and wiped his eyes a bit. He didn’t come out here to start crying like a big baby. He came out here to practice quidditch. Boys were not meant to cry after all. He began to feel more pathetic for his failure and weakness. Some of his other shortcomings then crept into his mind. His ongoing issues with transfiguration were always a concern for him that made him feel so stupid that he couldn’t even get basic transfiguration spells right.
Then there was still the confusions he had going around about his sexuality or was it asexuality? It was something that he was still getting used to. Don was not sure if he was ace, but he also didn’t feel attracted to either men nor women. It was odd; it was something that still worried him a bit.
The 14-year-old then wondered about his perceived lack of friends. Was he really that dislikeable? Was there really something that wrong with him that made everyone think of him as some kind of idiot that was best to be ignored, or rejected? Even worse some people, not in his house and mostly not in his year either, but some people did bully Donald. The Welsh wizard just couldn’t figure out why he was such an easy target for them. He didn’t do anyone any harm. But for some reason, he felt that he warranted their scorn.
In fact, the fourth year started to wonder where he fitted into everything? Life just was so confusing at the moment. His struggles with school, with social life, with quidditch, with his own sense of self, was just stressful for him. Sometimes he felt like he just wanted to crawl into the corner somewhere and for the whole world to swollen him up.
Why am I such a failure at everything a failure at everything Don thought to himself, no longer holding back the tears, nor trying to. Crying on the quidditch pitch wasn’t that sensible either, but now he was doing that to. So that was another thing for him to add to his growing list of inadequacies. All he needed now was for a fellow quidditch player to come onto the pitch and start laughing at him for being so pathetic. But then, he felt that he would deserve that if they did. He was pitiful and right now he believed that he didn’t deserve happiness. He was just weak, pathetic and stupid.
Quidditch wasn’t entirely going well for Ravenclaw this year. While they didn’t win last year, either the 14-year-old felt that they had done a pretty decent job last year and finished strongly. After all, they were runners-up in that year. However, this year they seemed to be struggling, and Donald felt that he was to blame. It might have been wrong for him to blame himself, after all, they didn’t do that badly last year. At least not in his opinion. He pondered if the change of broom had caused issues. His old teammate Caerus Nott gave him a Firebolt 2017 last year, and Donnie had been using it ever since. It was a good broom, a whole lot better than his old one. The young lad thought he had been getting used to it and decided that couldn’t be the problem. However, he did make a mental note to owl Caerus and see how things were going. That would not be weird right?
Thinking about his old teammates, it occurred to him that it might be the new team that was part of the issue. Maybe the new captain was not quite as good as the old one, or some of the other players were not as skilled as last year’s team? He decided that this probably wasn’t the case either. Maybe the captain, Lyla Graves, wasn’t as good as LJ? But he pushed that thought away as being unworthy of him. Of course, Lyla was a good captain, and he liked her. It wasn’t her fault nor was it his teammates' fault. That only left him at fault.
It didn’t occur to the fourth year to think that it wasn’t his fault at all and, instead the other teams have gotten stronger. Or that his own team was merely having a run of bad luck. That sometimes happens to sports teams.
Donnie was concerned about his team, worried that his performance was to blame, and anxious that he may get the blame and be thrown off the team. He needed to practice harder and harder; he needed to do better and make sure that he caught the snitch. It was his job as Ravenclaw seeker to do that, and he believed, rightly or wrongly, that he was failing in that.
It had crossed his mind to hand in his resignation to the team and apologise (probably non-stop knowing him) to his teammates and housemates for being such a complete and utter failure. The Welsh boy felt like crying over it He sighed a bit as he tried to fight the tears that were starting to well up in his brown eyes. Donald didn’t want to fail anyone; he didn’t want to be the one that was causing Ravenclaw to lose.
Maybe the pale-skinned youngster was putting a bit too much pressure onto himself, and he needed to relax a bit. Perhaps he didn’t need to be stressing himself so much over quidditch. It was only a game after all. At least that is what his sister would probably tell him if she saw him being so upset over it. But it wasn’t just a game, it was important, Making his parents proud of him, not letting own his teammates and helping Ravenclaw house pride were all very important to the young boy.
The spiky-haired lad leaned on his broom at the edge of the quidditch pitch and wiped his eyes a bit. He didn’t come out here to start crying like a big baby. He came out here to practice quidditch. Boys were not meant to cry after all. He began to feel more pathetic for his failure and weakness. Some of his other shortcomings then crept into his mind. His ongoing issues with transfiguration were always a concern for him that made him feel so stupid that he couldn’t even get basic transfiguration spells right.
Then there was still the confusions he had going around about his sexuality or was it asexuality? It was something that he was still getting used to. Don was not sure if he was ace, but he also didn’t feel attracted to either men nor women. It was odd; it was something that still worried him a bit.
The 14-year-old then wondered about his perceived lack of friends. Was he really that dislikeable? Was there really something that wrong with him that made everyone think of him as some kind of idiot that was best to be ignored, or rejected? Even worse some people, not in his house and mostly not in his year either, but some people did bully Donald. The Welsh wizard just couldn’t figure out why he was such an easy target for them. He didn’t do anyone any harm. But for some reason, he felt that he warranted their scorn.
In fact, the fourth year started to wonder where he fitted into everything? Life just was so confusing at the moment. His struggles with school, with social life, with quidditch, with his own sense of self, was just stressful for him. Sometimes he felt like he just wanted to crawl into the corner somewhere and for the whole world to swollen him up.
Why am I such a failure at everything a failure at everything Don thought to himself, no longer holding back the tears, nor trying to. Crying on the quidditch pitch wasn’t that sensible either, but now he was doing that to. So that was another thing for him to add to his growing list of inadequacies. All he needed now was for a fellow quidditch player to come onto the pitch and start laughing at him for being so pathetic. But then, he felt that he would deserve that if they did. He was pitiful and right now he believed that he didn’t deserve happiness. He was just weak, pathetic and stupid.