Post by Issadora May Wentzell on Jun 5, 2019 19:57:40 GMT -5
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[attr="class","ctopline"]I'm sitting on a citadel
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[attr="class","clyrics"]Making a point to waste my time[break]
I'm walking on clouds of white
I'm walking on clouds of white
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[attr="class","cbody"]Issa knew that it had been a long time ago that Anicka had offered her a job at the magazine if she wanted it. Merlin, it felt so long ago now. But it had been offered nonetheless. Of course, it had been offered back when leaving the estate was something that she did on very rare occasions and when she couldn’t imagine committing to a job when she had no idea if a bad day would leave her housebound, not wanting to even go outside, let alone out into London. It had just not been a good idea at all, so she hadn’t thought much of turning it down back then.
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But time had changed since then. She had changed. She was nowhere near the same person that she had been before all of this had happened. It wasn’t just some blip in her radar. It wasn’t something that she was capable of just getting past, like it was nothing. It was a big part of her life. The majority of her life had been spent in that house in Prague, and there was never going to be any way for her to get past that entirely. It was just impossible. But she could do her best to move forward. Her psychiatrist had diagnosed her with PTSD, not that there was any surprise in that. She had been prescribed medicine that did help. It didn’t do the trick entirely, but it helped. There were still some nights where she was riddled with insomnia or nightmares, but there were ways that she had learned that helped with that. She didn’t know why having chamomile tea right before she went to bed helped, but she found that it had.
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Bit by bit, things were getting a little easier. She knew that it wasn’t the result of any one thing. Everything that she did to try to move past what had been a good portion of her life helped. Whether it was the therapy, the medicine, or the little tricks that she had found. Whether it was being able to spend time with Ares, or the kids, or do other things that made her happy. It was getting easier and she was grateful for that. For a time, she truly had wondered if it was even possible to come back from this. It hadn’t really felt possible. And then Ares had been so distant, and she had just continued to feel like there was no way that she was going to manage to get through it—any of it. Somehow, they had.
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The epidemic had taken more from them, but she thought that they were doing their best to work past that as well. It was not easy on either of them. But she thought it was harder on Ares. She had lived a good portion of her life without magic. She was not happy to go back to that, but at least she was used to it. What she found the hardest to get used to was not having Ares in her head. She was so used to his Legilimency, so used to him knowing what she was thinking, and it was strange not to have that anymore.
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Of course, sometimes she didn’t feel like he needed to use Legilimency to know what she was thinking, but that was hardly the point. It was still something that she had found difficult to adjust to, for some silly reason. But she had every confidence that a cure would be found eventually. That was something that she was continuing to remain optimistic about. She needed to be. Eventually, they would figure it out. She had to think that they would. This would certainly not be their reality forever.
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Today had brought about different news from the Ministry, though. Nothing about the cure, instead about the registration. It hadn’t come as too much of a surprise to her. One didn’t have to be politically minded to know that the ICW had come with certain missions in mind, and getting rid of the registration had to have been on that list. It was only a matter of time, and apparently, they had decided that the time was now. It was undoing the work that Ares had done, that Anicka had done by killing the former Minister, and so she was worried about both of them today. She didn’t know why. There was likely no reason to worry, but she found herself worried nonetheless.
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Her relationship with Anicka had never gone back to the way it had been when she had returned and she had long since given up the hope that it would. She didn’t talk to her all that at all anymore, but she thought that it was worth coming in and seeing if she could finally take her up on that job. It felt like something that she was finally ready for. Issa had called to make sure that she didn’t have any meetings or that she wasn’t busy. Just showing up and expecting her to be free was obviously not something that she could do anymore.
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She didn’t know if Temperance had passed it along to her that she was coming or if she would be surprised but her appearance here. She hoped that it wouldn’t be too unpleasant of a surprise if it was, but there was no way to know these days. A knock and a push of the door later, and she was stepping into her office. “Hi. I hope you’re not too busy—” And she hoped that this wouldn’t prove to be horribly awkward either, but she thought it was definitely a possibility.
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But time had changed since then. She had changed. She was nowhere near the same person that she had been before all of this had happened. It wasn’t just some blip in her radar. It wasn’t something that she was capable of just getting past, like it was nothing. It was a big part of her life. The majority of her life had been spent in that house in Prague, and there was never going to be any way for her to get past that entirely. It was just impossible. But she could do her best to move forward. Her psychiatrist had diagnosed her with PTSD, not that there was any surprise in that. She had been prescribed medicine that did help. It didn’t do the trick entirely, but it helped. There were still some nights where she was riddled with insomnia or nightmares, but there were ways that she had learned that helped with that. She didn’t know why having chamomile tea right before she went to bed helped, but she found that it had.
[break][break]
Bit by bit, things were getting a little easier. She knew that it wasn’t the result of any one thing. Everything that she did to try to move past what had been a good portion of her life helped. Whether it was the therapy, the medicine, or the little tricks that she had found. Whether it was being able to spend time with Ares, or the kids, or do other things that made her happy. It was getting easier and she was grateful for that. For a time, she truly had wondered if it was even possible to come back from this. It hadn’t really felt possible. And then Ares had been so distant, and she had just continued to feel like there was no way that she was going to manage to get through it—any of it. Somehow, they had.
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The epidemic had taken more from them, but she thought that they were doing their best to work past that as well. It was not easy on either of them. But she thought it was harder on Ares. She had lived a good portion of her life without magic. She was not happy to go back to that, but at least she was used to it. What she found the hardest to get used to was not having Ares in her head. She was so used to his Legilimency, so used to him knowing what she was thinking, and it was strange not to have that anymore.
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Of course, sometimes she didn’t feel like he needed to use Legilimency to know what she was thinking, but that was hardly the point. It was still something that she had found difficult to adjust to, for some silly reason. But she had every confidence that a cure would be found eventually. That was something that she was continuing to remain optimistic about. She needed to be. Eventually, they would figure it out. She had to think that they would. This would certainly not be their reality forever.
[break][break]
Today had brought about different news from the Ministry, though. Nothing about the cure, instead about the registration. It hadn’t come as too much of a surprise to her. One didn’t have to be politically minded to know that the ICW had come with certain missions in mind, and getting rid of the registration had to have been on that list. It was only a matter of time, and apparently, they had decided that the time was now. It was undoing the work that Ares had done, that Anicka had done by killing the former Minister, and so she was worried about both of them today. She didn’t know why. There was likely no reason to worry, but she found herself worried nonetheless.
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Her relationship with Anicka had never gone back to the way it had been when she had returned and she had long since given up the hope that it would. She didn’t talk to her all that at all anymore, but she thought that it was worth coming in and seeing if she could finally take her up on that job. It felt like something that she was finally ready for. Issa had called to make sure that she didn’t have any meetings or that she wasn’t busy. Just showing up and expecting her to be free was obviously not something that she could do anymore.
[break][break]
She didn’t know if Temperance had passed it along to her that she was coming or if she would be surprised but her appearance here. She hoped that it wouldn’t be too unpleasant of a surprise if it was, but there was no way to know these days. A knock and a push of the door later, and she was stepping into her office. “Hi. I hope you’re not too busy—” And she hoped that this wouldn’t prove to be horribly awkward either, but she thought it was definitely a possibility.
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[attr="class","cnotes"]945 ● @anicka ● outfit
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