Post by Michael Holden Parkinson on Jul 2, 2019 20:04:44 GMT -5
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[attr="class","ctopline"]And I won't break the commission
[attr="class","cscriptministry"]nothing good ever lasts
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No quarter given, no rust
No quarter given, no rust
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[attr="class","cbody"]He had not been having a good day when Van had strolled into the kitchen. It had been a decidedly bad day, actually. He had woken up knowing that it would be. Michael had been exhausted, he had felt heavy all day, and it had felt like blow after blow had kept on coming down on him. It had felt like nothing was going to go his way, and that he might as well have called it quits very early on this Tuesday. There was just no hope that it was going to turn around. It had been a day where he had felt like giving up, a day where he wondered why he didn’t.
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Van had come by because he wanted to invite him to his and Cat’s vow renewal. When he had first heard him, Michael had thought that he must have misheard him, because there was just no way that his brother had come all the way here to personally invite him to his former betrothed’s vow renewal. There was just no way that was why he had come here. There was no way that this day had just gotten worse. He had not thought it was possible for him to feel worse than he had after reading about Jaxon’s injury. It had been like a punch to the gut, it had felt like a hand holding him underwater. It had just felt like this day was riding on him to fail, hitting him with one thing after the next until he had nothing to do except to give up entirely. And then he had heard about the vow renewal.
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He had not committed to going one way or another. He had not said that he wouldn’t, but he hadn’t said that he would either. Michael knew that he should go. He was The Lord Parkinson. People would whisper if he did not go to his brother’s vow renewal. They would speculate and they would gossip, and did they really need more of that? Would their father have wanted him to do something that would fuel the gossip mill like that? Or would he want him to go? To put aside his opinions to make sure that the public saw the Parkinsons as strong and cohesive and not fractured and fighting amongst themselves?
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Michael would have thought that he’d know that answer. He should have known what to do. He was supposed to have these answers. It was his job. The fact that he didn’t know this, that he didn’t know the right thing to do without hurting someone, was proof that he was not made for this. That he was letting himself down, his father down, the entire family down. He didn’t even know what his father would want him to do, and that just was the nail in the coffin on this day. There was no making it any better. There was no fixing this day.
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Every single part of him wanted to go back up to his room. He wanted to retreat into the darkness of his room, of his mind, and just not come out until everything was better. Until he was better. Better at being the lord, better at being a brother, better at being a friend, better at knowing how to deal with the fact that his ex-boyfriend was in the hospital and just… better. Better than what he was now.
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Instead, he had forced himself to come here instead. To do something to help instead of relying on his worst impulses. He had Flooed to his sister’s without even knowing if she was home, and dropped down onto the couch, suddenly exhausted. He didn’t even have the energy to hunt her down to see if she was actually here.
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Van had come by because he wanted to invite him to his and Cat’s vow renewal. When he had first heard him, Michael had thought that he must have misheard him, because there was just no way that his brother had come all the way here to personally invite him to his former betrothed’s vow renewal. There was just no way that was why he had come here. There was no way that this day had just gotten worse. He had not thought it was possible for him to feel worse than he had after reading about Jaxon’s injury. It had been like a punch to the gut, it had felt like a hand holding him underwater. It had just felt like this day was riding on him to fail, hitting him with one thing after the next until he had nothing to do except to give up entirely. And then he had heard about the vow renewal.
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He had not committed to going one way or another. He had not said that he wouldn’t, but he hadn’t said that he would either. Michael knew that he should go. He was The Lord Parkinson. People would whisper if he did not go to his brother’s vow renewal. They would speculate and they would gossip, and did they really need more of that? Would their father have wanted him to do something that would fuel the gossip mill like that? Or would he want him to go? To put aside his opinions to make sure that the public saw the Parkinsons as strong and cohesive and not fractured and fighting amongst themselves?
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Michael would have thought that he’d know that answer. He should have known what to do. He was supposed to have these answers. It was his job. The fact that he didn’t know this, that he didn’t know the right thing to do without hurting someone, was proof that he was not made for this. That he was letting himself down, his father down, the entire family down. He didn’t even know what his father would want him to do, and that just was the nail in the coffin on this day. There was no making it any better. There was no fixing this day.
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Every single part of him wanted to go back up to his room. He wanted to retreat into the darkness of his room, of his mind, and just not come out until everything was better. Until he was better. Better at being the lord, better at being a brother, better at being a friend, better at knowing how to deal with the fact that his ex-boyfriend was in the hospital and just… better. Better than what he was now.
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Instead, he had forced himself to come here instead. To do something to help instead of relying on his worst impulses. He had Flooed to his sister’s without even knowing if she was home, and dropped down onto the couch, suddenly exhausted. He didn’t even have the energy to hunt her down to see if she was actually here.
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[attr="class","cnotes"]629 ● @sierra ● outfit awkward, he forgot to change out of pajamas
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